Some people dread their 50's.
I am embracing them, for they are the "after" years from a very long and bumpy path.
That path sent me veering crazily off course from what I had planned for my 40's.
If I had known what was coming, would I have made different choices?
The answer is a definitive yes.
I would have listened to my intuition.
I would have silenced the influences in my life that were afraid of their own truth.
I would have been bolder.
I would have been braver.
I would have walked away sooner...
from so many things.
What did I learn?
Mental illness is an insidious disease. Mentally unwell people are all around you.
In your families, in your workplace, in your neighborhood.
You marry into it, you acquire friends with it and you can't always identify it.
It's duplicitous nature is veiled and wrapped up in pretty paper -
and smelling like trust.
(ie: Sociopath)
There are some people who continuously look for conflict.
Walk away from these people.
The battle they are fighting isn’t with you, it’s with themselves.
You can't assume that accountability is something understood by all.
Caring for someone doesn't mean that you must engage
in the chaos they create around themselves.
Most importantly:
You don’t drown by falling in the water.
You drown by staying there.
So if any of you out there are feeling as if you're underwater-
Start kicking like hell and swim up.
Swim up.
It's so much easier to breathe when your life is in your hands again.
(Thank you, Ursula)
There are reminders every single day.
You just have to see them.
Go, June Bug, Go.